We’ve all had the feeling of being judged and found to be less than someone else thinks we should be, but have you ever stopped to consider the kind of person who would be judgemental, especially towards something with mental health issues?
Sometimes it’s easy to think you’re less than them because they’re saying so, but isn’t judgement cruel and unkind? I would say that’s far worse than struggling with your own mind for good reason.
However, the stronger you get, the more centred you become, the sooner they will fade to the edges of your life and disappear once and for all.
Here’s something I wrote in 2004 when I was feeling judged and found wanting, from all sides.
The Eyes of the Judges
Ten times ten
And ten times one thousand
Everyone watching everything – everywhere
Nothing and no one escapes those looks
Seeing – knowing – judging
Glowing with their superiority
Their eternal rightness of being
While the watched struggle and strive
Just to stay sane and alive
With no time for perfection
Or to wallow in the luxury of being right
No thought to impress
Trusting that in the next breath
The next instant
Everything will change
Those who are wrong will be right
The righteous will fall from grace
And the rest of us will continue being real
Knowing that we are enough
Flowing with the process of life
Free and easy because we’re free of them
Slightly concerned about the price of jam
And tomorrow’s weather
That is all
Deb Hawken – 2004